'Fundamentally Altered', 1/5 for stagesoflove R2 - Arousal, #1 Desire

[darkhavens]

Author: darkhavens
Title: Fundamentally Altered, 1/5
Pairing: Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: NC-17 overall
Words: 252
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Warnings/Squicks: Putative Wincest (will become graphic in later chapters).
Summary: Repeated near-death experience would affect us all.
Notes: Written for stagesoflove 2006, Round 2, 'Five Stages of Sexual Arousal', challenge #1 - Desire.
Also posted here.




It's amazing what prolonged, repeated near-death experience can do to a man's (or men's, or even women's, come to think of it) sense of right and wrong, to his morality. The urge to grab and cling, to hold and shelter, doesn't go away, in fact, it intensifies. The need to touch and feel and reassure yourself that you're alive, he's alive, still alive and whole and breathing, well, it changes things. Fundamental things.

Each morning, when you wake, your first instinct is to turn and just make sure that he's still there, still here, with you. But, eventually, that's not enough. You need to touch that out-stretched hand that dangles off the bed, always has and probably always will - he's so predictable.

So, you nudge your bed an inch or two closer, just so you can spread the map out properly on the floor. You wake as soon as dawn sends fragile beams of dusty sunlight sliding under through between the curtains. You reach out, slow and hesitant, and graze those callused fingertips with your own, and that's enough, for now.

And then it's not.

The next time you're down to one last silver bullet, flaming arrow, squirt of holy water, and you both survive to tell the tale, it's automatic to reach out and reel him in. You only realise what you've done when it's too late, when lips have bumped and slid and locked and hands have clenched and legs have tangled.

Too late? Or not nearly soon enough?



#2. Excitement

Comments

[moveablehistory.livejournal.com]

I completely ♥ed Closer Than Brothers and I'm inordinately excited that you've started another series. &smishes;

I especially like the last section, and the naturalness of just being happy to be alive. The last line is very poignant.

Looking forward to the next part. :)

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

CTB was my first multi-part Wincest fic and I was amazed by the reception it got. Amazed and very happy. *g*

Part 4 is being thunk up as I type. ;)

[quietdiscerning.livejournal.com]

Guh. I love how you can say so much with so LITTLE.

Mmmmm.

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

I'm trying to move away from drabbles to write longer pieces again, but sometimes the short sharp punch works the best. :D

[mf_luder_xf]

And you do it again!! I am forever stunned by your fic.

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *beams*

[lady-shain.livejournal.com]

Beautifully written and I can't wait for the rest.

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Part 4 is on the way very soon. :D

[literati.livejournal.com]

So wonderfully descriptive, baby!

♥

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thankee, darlin'! *smooch*

[emella.livejournal.com]

Awesome. Love that last line.

Great job. :)

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

More soon. ;)

[jellicle.livejournal.com]

All the promise of another amazing work!

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thanks! More on the way. :D

[tabaqui]

Yeesssssssss...
*smoooch*

Lovely stuff.
Lovely stuff!!!!
*so incorherent here at skip 240*

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

wow. Anything over skip=200 I always refer to as skip=bajillion - it's boggling. *g*

Thankee! More soon. :D

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Ahhh... That, indeed, is the question...

*Pauses to dump icebucket over head...*

What was I saying?

Oh..Yes... Wonderful!!! Looking forward to more!! *Squeals inappropriately and faints over keyboard...*

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

*drops ice down your neck to revive you* ;)

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

I like the build, the way you move them into each other in stages. Nice.

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

Getting them together is half the fun. :D

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

Heck yeah! Slow Build is always hot!

[byrons-brain.livejournal.com]

Wonderful...

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :D

[kitty-poker1.livejournal.com]

I gave in, and I'm glad I did. This is so evocative and has so much *truth* at the heart of it. Lovely. :)

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you! These boys really do get the emotions flowing from my fingertips. *smooch*

[vodou-blue.livejournal.com]

So raw and sexy and needy and desperate! Bravo!

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

Thank you! That's just about what I was feeling as i was writing. Those boys hurt so pretty... *g*