darkhavens: text icon: 15 m/m pairings in dk purple, with paler txt darkhavens and even paler txt multifandom ho. (rodney waiting for shep [literati])
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Author: darkhavens
Title: Hurt
Pairing: McKay/Sheppard
Rating: PG-13
Words: 669
Spoilers: Conversion
Feedback/Concrit: darkhavens @ slashverse.com
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be. No harm, no foul, no money made.
Summary: Rodney confronts a newly de-bugged John.
Notes: This is the first ficlet written for my [livejournal.com profile] slash_100 McShep Big Damn Table, prompt #63-Hurt.


Hurt

Rodney finally tracked John down at dusk, on a distant balcony, and penned him into a corner with grim determination.

"I just don't understand why you wouldn't see me."

John blinked and focussed on keeping his expression blankly puzzled, intent on ignoring the unreasonable excitement that came with such close proximity.

"Rodney -"

"Don't. Did you honestly think I wouldn't notice? You out-ran Ronon and barely broke a sweat, just so you could gloat about it. You beat Teyla at her sticks with one hand behind your back, and don't think I don't know about that kiss. Really, John, are you always that clumsy in a clinch? That fumble did your Don Juan reputation no favours."

As John tried to process that off-hand revelation, Rodney frowned and ran though a mental list of notes.

"Where was I? Oh, yes. Ronon, Teyla, even Elizabeth. I know you spent hours talking in private with her, and yet I was prevented from entering the room on your orders. Why exactly was that, Colonel? Afraid I'd make a scene? Or did your inner bug decide I wasn't worth your time?" The flicker in John's eye would have gone unnoticed to most, but Rodney froze in horrified realization.

"Oh. My. God. That's it, isn't it? You had something to prove; that's why you took on Ronon and Teyla. Both of them have given your macho image a knock or two, and Elizabeth's your superior, at least on paper. But not me; I was never any real threat to your ego. Why would your bug think twice about a hypochondriac geek, eh? I probably didn't even show up as a blip on the radar. Huh."

Rodney's hyperactive brain immediately began reordering and recalibrating the facts to fit this new, hurtful, scenario.

For a moment, John watched the wheels turning behind blue eyes, every emotion visible to those who cared to look. The blooming of dull acceptance was what broke him.

"Jesus, Rodney, do you really think…? You couldn't be more wrong!"

John's hands were suddenly curled tight around Rodney's biceps, pulling the unresisting scientist closer, needing contact.

"Dammit, for a genius you really are dumb. I kissed Teyla because I was curious and I could, and yeah, it sucked. I didn't kiss Ronon 'cause, hey, I had speed, but I knew he could break me in two. Elizabeth was… Okay, let's not go there. You know I've never dealt well with authority figures, and the bug thing just made that so much worse. But you - I didn't dare get close to you."

The fabric beneath John's thumbs was warm and not quite smooth, and, absently, he began to stroke in time with Rodney's pulse. Rodney's eyelids fluttered and his pupils dilated. His tongue swept out and traced his lower lip and John groaned.

"I knew if I got hold of you I wouldn't let you go. I had just enough control to stay away."

A tiny crease formed between Rodney's brows at the admission, as though he couldn't believe what he was hearing. John resisted the urge to give him a shake.

"I wanted you, Rodney. I want you. And I knew if I got the chance - and you said no - I wouldn't stop. I wanted you so badly, under me, open. Powerless and begging me - to stop, to move, for more. Damn, there were times when I could just about taste you in the air… I wonder if that was when you tried to visit."

John paused, expecting a show of scientific curiosity, but Rodney was apparently too entranced by what he'd heard. His tightly beaded nipples, jutting out through thin blue cotton, gave John all the encouragement he needed.

"So, you like the sound of that, me holding you down?" He shifted his grip and scratched a thumbnail over one taut nub. Rodney shuddered, gasped and closed his eyes. "Oh yeah."

A tilt of his head had John's lips aligning with Rodney's just as the setting sun dropped away.

on 2005-10-20 10:44 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] literati.livejournal.com
you.damn.tease

::pouts::

Very lovely but I want more. Now.

on 2005-10-20 10:50 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hey, you chose hurt, I wrote hurt. They hurted! *g*

Thanks, sweetie.

on 2005-10-20 11:30 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] slashfictionfan.livejournal.com
OMG... "So, you like sound of that, me holding you down?" He shifted his grip and scratched a thumbnail over one taut nub. Rodney shuddered, gasped and closed his eyes. "Oh yeah."
Rodney was not the only one shuddering.. wow, how hot was THAT *fans self*

Plus the line "The blooming of dull acceptance was what broke him. " nearly broke me too...

and all in one story... I feel like it's my birthday and I got a rodney shaped present. Thank you.

on 2005-10-20 11:34 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com
So if I choose "porn," will you write that? *Blinks innocently*

This was brilliant and gorgeously written. I love it.

on 2005-10-20 11:38 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! I would... but there's no 'Porn' prompt in my Big Damn Table. Of course, there is 'Sex' and 'Kink' and 'Threesome' and 'Seduction' and... *g*

And thank you! I hope the other 99 are as much fun to write as this one. :D

on 2005-10-20 11:55 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! Happy un-birthday. Enjoy unwrapping your present. *g*

on 2005-10-20 11:57 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] janedavitt.livejournal.com
Got here from WG's rec and loved it. Great reasoning and a lovely, hot way to soothe McKay's hurt.

on 2005-10-21 12:02 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] yin-again.livejournal.com
*wibble*

That was...

...

Me. Bunk. Now. Oh, yeah.

on 2005-10-21 12:13 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thanks! I figured there had to be a reason for the surprising dearth of R/J interaction in Conversion. Usually they're in each other's back pockets. It was too odd. It needed explaining and uncontrollable lust was as good a reason as any, IMO. *g*

And thanks for letting me know WG recced me. I always get a silly grin on my face when that happens. :D

on 2005-10-21 12:14 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! Thanks. *fans you*

on 2005-10-21 12:15 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] janedavitt.livejournal.com
Me too, which is why I mentioned it! ::g::

on 2005-10-21 12:40 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] ceares.livejournal.com
Going with Rodney here...I definitely like the sound of that. Very nice-thanks.

on 2005-10-21 12:57 am (UTC)
tabaqui: (Default)
Posted by [personal profile] tabaqui
Ahhhhh, nice.
:)

I like.

Help! I'm being sucked in!!

on 2005-10-21 01:09 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thanks! :D

on 2005-10-21 01:10 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! Thanks!

*sucks harder* :D

on 2005-10-21 02:18 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] chaps1870.livejournal.com
Well that would have been a nice visual...John taking Rodney. I'm so warped that way! :)

on 2005-10-21 02:31 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
hey, it's not warped to appreciate the pretty. *g*

Thanks!

*uses complementary icon*

on 2005-10-21 02:34 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] sp23.livejournal.com
Oh, yeah. Certainly makes sense to me that was why he was never alone with Rodney. Loved it. :)

on 2005-10-21 03:37 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] gorgon-mythos.livejournal.com
This story was just too good, love the passion John was speaking with. Good job :)

on 2005-10-21 04:53 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thanks! There had to be a reason, you know? Apart from the scriptwriters or studio bosses being asshats. *g*

on 2005-10-21 04:54 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! He just couldn't bear to see Rodney accepting that he wasn't worth bug!Shep's time. :D

on 2005-10-21 09:46 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] bluespirit-star.livejournal.com
Oh my - that was very, very...mmmmmmm...
*guh*
Thank you!

on 2005-10-21 09:58 am (UTC)
ext_953: Gabriel casually leaning against a wall (Rodney--Is Geek Love)
Posted by [identity profile] toniabarone.livejournal.com
Damn. Great work, as always. Damn. Also? Hot. Wow. Freck. I'm gonna go cool off now.

on 2005-10-21 02:25 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] othercat.livejournal.com
*glurble*

*is dead*

on 2005-10-21 06:22 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] piratepurple.livejournal.com
Yum! Humminah... *drools*

on 2005-10-22 08:16 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] ruggerdavey.livejournal.com
Ho-ly shit, that was hot. Guh.

on 2005-10-23 12:31 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com
Oh! *Fans self* Oh, yeah! THIS was HOTTTT!!!! Love McKay, Love Shep (sometimes) - and especially love the goodies! Keep 'em comin', dear! *Blows sloppy kisses your way!*

on 2005-11-03 07:40 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! :D

on 2005-11-03 07:41 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thanks! :D

on 2005-11-03 07:42 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! *revives you* :D

on 2005-11-03 07:42 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! Thanks. *passes you a tissue*

on 2005-11-03 07:44 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! :D

on 2005-11-03 07:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! One down, ninety-nine to go. *flails*

on 2005-11-11 05:51 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] noneeca.livejournal.com
oh. that. yeah. guh.
*wanders off, bumping into furniture* and you expect me to concentrate on SCHOOLWORK NOW?!?!
... teh hott...

on 2005-11-24 10:01 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Hee! Thanks. *provides padding*

on 2006-02-16 04:25 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] crownglass39.livejournal.com
Oh my God! Just found this!
Just wow!
Please tell me you wrote a sequel!

on 2006-04-10 04:53 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you!

There is no sequel... yet. But I never say never, because as soon as I do, life tries to prove me wrong. *g*

on 2006-05-15 11:31 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] riadsala.livejournal.com
Mmm, nice. I really like that last image. Very cinematic.

on 2006-05-17 05:29 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thank you! That was exactly what I was going for - a cinematic sunrise followed by a fade to black, after which they hump each others' legs like sex-crazed weasels. *g*

on 2006-05-17 05:36 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
And of course when I said 'sunrise' I meant 'sunset'. *head desk*

on 2006-12-25 10:40 pm (UTC)
sandrine: (possessive!John)
Posted by [personal profile] sandrine
Guh. The other one was hot, but at least it had actual sex. This one? Made my brain evaporate with its hotness even though they hardly even touched

"I wanted you, Rodney. I want you. And I knew if I got the chance - and you said no - I wouldn't stop. I wanted you so badly, under me, open. Powerless and begging me - to stop, to move, for more.

It's no wonder that little speed of John has Rodney all entranced and speechless there. It had pretty much the same effect on me. *g*

Really, this is amazing. Thank you so, so much for the heads-up! To think that I would have missed this otherwise...

(And yes, you're right - bug!Sheppard is way too hot for, well, a bug. *g* That scene with Elizabeth in his quarters had we swallow very hard. And I don't even like John/Elizabeth at all!)

on 2007-02-18 12:07 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Thanks!

This one? Made my brain evaporate with its hotness even though they hardly even touched

Hee! *buffs nails on chest*

These two boys can steam up a room from opposite sides of a desk. They're so much fun to play with!

on 2008-04-19 06:45 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] outsideth3box.livejournal.com
Mmmmm, yes. You make with teh hurt soooo well. Poor Rodney, so insecure. Heartbreak when he thought he had it all figured out.

Thankfully, he's not a genius at *everything*.

John will make it better. Yis!

**bounces**

on 2008-06-03 06:52 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] darkhavens.livejournal.com
Yes! Rodney does sometimes come to the wrong conclusion when it concerns him and others' reactions to him. But John will make him better. :D

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